RE: What is you theory on the Past?

This is in response to Crystal's blog. I agree with you on some points. I believe the past cannot simply be ignored, but then that dwells into the matter of giving people second chances. Everyone deserves a second chance as long as they're honestly willing to fix themselves or patch up others that they may have affected. You can't change the mistakes you've made because some things just can't be forgotten. But you can sure as hell do something to show you realize what you've done and that you actually care. It's then in the power of the person you're seeking forgiveness from to take it from there. I just think that if both want to make an effort then in that case anyone should have the right to have a second chance. You shouldn't live in the past, and you shouldn't hold things against people. Grudges are just extra baggage. Really though this is all common sense.

I think your past is how you learn but it doesn't make you who you are. Well, I said that wrong. It does make you who you are, but it's not who you are. Does that make sense? How you act and the opinions you form and your beliefs and the decisions you make, everything you do leads up to how you have turned out. So yeah, your past makes you who you are. But it's all just memories, really.. and a great tool for learning. You can learn to be a doctor, but that doesn't mean you won't switch your major. So what you have decided right now, that's who you are. How you look at things. And tomorrow, that could change. Open up doors and look at how everything has turned out if you need to. That's how some people try to figure out themselves, by reflecting on their decisions and how they have turned out.. or what happened when they made mistakes. But what I'm saying is other people shouldn't really do that, look into your past to figure you out because people are frequently changing their mind up on things, and the errors they made they're most likely sorry for.. don't hold it against them. We're constantly growing. We're not always the same people we were a few years ago. Let go of any prejudices you have against someone and learn who they are now.

The past should not be forgotten, but you should not rely on that in getting to know me. That's my final outlook on this whole deal. My mind changes up a lot. I've also made a lot of mistakes and still do, but I'm constantly learning through the consequences I face.

I didn't read them all but a short, simple quote I liked you had:
"For the majority of us, the past is a regret, the future an experiment." - Mark Twain
Regret is a human emotion that a lot of people can't do anything about but that's just proof people are sorry. You can't change what they did, but you can forgive them. The future being an experiment just shows how people are constantly changing.

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

i don't care about this holiday. i'm going to get stuffed and watch wall-e. in your face jenny craig.

well, i could if you can try and fix what i've undone cause i hate what i've become

Had a painting party couple days ago with Mel, Van, Haley, Kara, Catie, Gage, and Garrett. Her room turned out pretty cool.. and it was kinda messy. But I had fun. Got my ticket for Iowa... leave the 18th, come back on the 30th. Pretty happy that I get to see my siblings again. I have to make a christmas list, too. I hate asking for stuff but I have nothing better to do right now. Lindsey had her surgery and I think everything went okay. Please pray for her if you do that kinda thing. I don't know what good it does but maybe just thinking about her getting better will help.

Happy Halloween!

My break hasn't been too bad. Went to Savannah a few times and finally got to see for myself how expensive the new Urban Outfitters is. Got some Christmas gifts there anyways, and stopped by Spencer's which I need to go back there. On the way home the third time I went Van bumped into a huge, scary black guy with Desiree's car. They complained to Progressive that they were hurt. What assholes, right? Van "bumped" into them. It can't even be called hitting them. Nothing happened and he had slammed on his breaks. I hate stupid people.

In movies, Angels & Demons looks good :) This would be the sequel to Davinci Code, which I need to read before it's released cause it's sposed to be pretty great.

I'm going to backpack across Europe. Might sound crazy to you, and I'm betting you're thinking that I'm just saying it and I'm not really gonna go through with it. Well guess what, I'm not that person. 3 years from now. Four* people that wanna do it, 1 of which I know is concrete on this whole idea. That's good enough for me.

London -- Amsterdam -- Paris -- Munich -- Venice -- Rome -- Home

I wanted to believe in all the words that I was speaking

Last night was Josh's Halloween Party. By last minute changes I just painted my face like the Joker in Dark Knight. I think I did okay, and it looked better today from minor differences I improved on it. Anyway yeah, I love Josh's house. He decked it out with decorations and he had a lot of good food. And we watched Prom Night which I hadn't seen before. Just being on a projector thing makes the movie better than I thought it'd be but it was still predictable. And I had a cookie that said Rip Aaron :) It was goooood. I even ate Van's, haha. Loraine won best costume and I missed the apple bobbing but it's k cause I suck at that.

Afterwards I went over to Lindsey's with other Lindsey and Megan. We watched Incredible Hulk and we all ended up falling asleep there. Woke up this morning, rushed to get makeup back on, and headed over to Van's where him, Rj, and Fernando were waiting. We met up with Desiree and went off to Savannah for her youth group. Everyone there is really nice :) Got free candy and explored haunted halls. Afterwards we sorta ran around, unicycling and what not. I got my picture taken from a couple people and one lady had me scare her friends, haha. We then met up with this kid Matt who agrees that mint chocolate chip ice cream is not the best kind so that makes him my new best friend. Sorry Van. Anyway we all did this compline thing where it was super quiet and had amazing music. And it was really dark. In a church. Funny experience though.

Got the Dark Knight. Disc is scratched but oh well. Thanks Brooke :) Also saw Quarantine the other night. Not great, but it did the job in scaring me and I don't regret buying a ticket so I'm glad I went. Atmosphere of that whole hotel was pretty creepy, and how everyone was totally oblivious that the people were dangerous was kinda bizarre. Oh and Death Cab is....words can't describe. Yep.

Blah blah blah.

if the world's at large, why should i remain?

Tonight was fun. I watched Boys Don't Cry with Megan, Lindsey, and Lindsey. At Lindsey's. Haha. We started Sunshine but no one was really watching it and we had to all go home anyway. Then after met Troy and Katie, where I watched guess what show with Desiree and Van. Van is wonderfully terrible behind the wheel. But that's okay.. I sort of encouraged it. Anyway, The Office wasn't incredibly funny but I still enjoy the series for what it's worth. Look forward to seeing those two again when me Des and Van all go to Savannah Sunday. We're all gonna be wearing costumes (which Van fashionably tried on a few ladies outfits tonight) and go to some cult thing and I'm gonna paint my face like Joker and just have a blast. Saturday is Josh's Halloween party which I'm super psyched for. I'm gonna be a jedi :D and Josh always has wonderful food to eat. Tomorrow, well.. today, I'm hanging with Van after school. We're making velveeta, packing it, picking up Michael, and going on a fun little trip. Looking forward to this long break.

I didn't go to school today because last night as I was burning the edges of my wanted poster for English, the whole dang thing caught fire and set off the alarms. I took a little break in my comfy bed, Megan failed to wake me!, and I couldn't go without my project, duh. So that's why I wasn't there.

The dork I am, I haven't bought a figure in awhile. But I'm kinda wanting this bobble head...

















Ha ha, I don't know. Maybe. I never need these things. I just don't have much else to do with my money. Well, $5 will go to a Dark Knight dvd since Brooke told me today that her secret friend has got it to sell! I am psyched :)

note to self

stop preaching; start listening